When I'm Sad I Stop Being Sad and Being Awesome Instead

Hi readers,

This few couples of days, my life was surrounded with sorrow and broken heart feeling, many things happened in once. My eyes was swollen when I woke up this morning then I cried again when I sit on my bed and look outside to the bright sun. All I can think on that moment was how am I suppose to do to forget you, yes I want to forget everything that we've done together, all of it, I wanted to forget about my suck life before and I wanna change to be a better girl.

I cried a lot and I don't want my family to notice it so I only cried before I sleep and after I woke up and when I'm praying to Allah. I've done a few things to forget you, I don't use my phone anymore, I promise I will never contact you although I'm missing you so badly that moment, I don't care, I want to forget everything. I want to be the old me who is never cared about boys and always do things on my own, I don't need anyone right now, I want to be lonely again because I love myself like that. Yes I want to change.

Starting today and tomorrow my truly best friends was all my SPM's books. And you too my lovely blog, the only place I can tell secret and my feeling, you're so awesome my dear blog :) I'm on a mission to deactivated back my facebook account, hmm but I still need social networking things to help me forget everything though. And tumblr was the most happiest place ever to reblogged all the post I love, yes tumblr made me feel happy and simply forget everything.

I also try to change my fashion style to a bit more vintage modern which the idea came from my dream, lol. But I still be me though, I won't change drastically. And I also promise myself no more boys in my life right now. Although I'm in a relationship right now, but I just want to make that as a status only, not that I don't love him, it just I need him to understand that I will become someone else after this, the old me who dunno anything about love feeling and sweet words or even what is love? Yes that's what I want. I still young and I want to live my teenagers life with awesomeness and wonderfulness. 

That's all for now though, from now on whenever I have empty time I'll type whatever I want to you blog. Good bye for now for I am going to continue my study and I don't even shower yet, eww me right? lol.

tatatututiti :)